Monday, November 19, 2012


1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
The second one. Most of the times, when we're talking about feelings, guys are letting me down... But most of the time, they haven't told me in person. And I'd rather hear it in person than having to cry over the fucking text.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
--Today before work. At my brother. He took my keys a couple days ago and it has the keys to my work place and so I needed it for work. The reason I got really pissed was because of the childish ways he's been acting lately. He's a junior in hs, he's on the Becca bill, and he's failing majority of his classes. It's just pissing me off how casual he is about it all. He's not stepping up his game and the fact that I try to help and he's not accepting makes me pissed. Esp, with the key stuff. That's the minimal of what he should do right.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
--My mom. No second thought to it. She may be the only person I truly care from the bottom of my heart. Yeah my brother's there but no one has sacrificed more than my mom has for me. And the only person who would come into my mind at that sort of time would definitely be my mom.
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
5. You can have one of the following two things. Love or Trust. Which do you choose? Why?
--Love. I believe with love comes trust. You cannot ever love someone without fully trusting them. Even in a relationship where a person cheats, there's a reason why they haven't fully left their significant other although you are with another. Because you trust that they still love you.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
--Hahaha... mothertrucker... Uhm, skip?
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
--Hahahaha my only best friend who is a male is Andrew Choe. If he said it... hmm lol wouldn't be a shock? We're kind of close. But I don't think any of us has feelings for one another. But we do love each other, we're best friends and I trust him with everything!
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
--Yes. If my gma had one more hour, I'd actually be there on time before she passed...
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
--I hope so... Hahh
11. Does love = sex?
--I learned in Human Sex that a healthy loving relationship correlates with a healthy sex life!
12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
--No. No offense but I'm not in any position to sacrifice my life just for someone else. If they were close to me and asked me as a huge favor, maybe, but other than that, I'm sorry. It's your business.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
--Daniel. And a couple weeks ago... We were talking about him going to help a girl out with her camera since she's a noob and he's at a much higher level. I was like "you better not holla" and he asked why and I said no and back and forth but eventually gave in and told him I tried not to but I have feelings for him. It was just brief but I should have never told him... He hasn't told me he felt the name nor has he made an effort to put more into this...or us...Fucker.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
--That you don't. Eric Chung. I've loved him for who knows how long. But after being separate and far away from each other for so long, it's hard to love him back. He told me he still loves me but I told him I don't because I really can't...
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
--Yep! I have this thing I got in my CPR class that go between one person's mouth and another~ hehe
19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
20. Are you old fashioned?
21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

Monday, November 12, 2012


1.            the person i like and why i like them.
I honestly don't want to post his name up but I like him cos... I don't know. The connection? He has so many things so similar to me. I may feel like it because he's the only guy I'm putting my effort into tryna make it work. But there's a lot that's keeping me interested. The fact that he's got a lot of my interests in a guy: Goes to school, has a goal for life, plays sports/active, tall, similar humor as me, etc etc. Just a little bit of stuff I look in a guy. I tell him I don't get jealous and I usually don't but I have no idea what it is. Lately, I've been feeling like it...
2.            a famous person i’ve been compared to.
When I had my blonde hair, someone said I look like Jessica from SNSD -______-" worst compliment ever... No offense to that girl Jessica.
3.            5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex.
Girl/guy combined: Girls- how easy they can be. Craving for attention so they have to take pics with cleavage, etc.
Guys-why is commitment so hard for you guys?
Girls- Majority of the time, guys really don't care what you're wearing or what you look like. If he's interested in only that, you're obviously not interested in the right person.
Guys- Why do you guys like that aegyo? I hate that shit so much and that's all you guys like to stick around to.
Girls- Why do you only get close to girls that have something to offer to you. So fucking annoying.
4.            the best thing that has happened to me this week.
I got a new car!!!! Hyundai Elantra 2013. I traded in my old 2010 Sonata for it. So happy/excited :):):) trying to drive everywhere with it. Gonna let babe drive in it.
5.            weird things i do when i’m alone.
Diy craft? Is it weird how much I love to diy!!!?
6.            how i’d spend ten thousand bucks.
I'd honestly give majority of it to my parents. Then a little to my brother and maybe keep a grand for myself. With that grand, I'd either buy makeup/clothes products or since xmas is around the corner, I'd save it to buy my loved ones GREAT gifts... Lol although a grand is probably not enough for xmas..
7.            things i like and things i don’t like about the way i look.
I hate my acne!! I have so much and I've been trying everything to get rid of it but I can't... I hate it so much it makes me feel so self conscious... I don't mind have a tiny petite body if it got rid of the pimples on my face, chest, and back...
8.            my last night out in detail.
Went to watch "Wreck it Ralph" with my best friend Andrew and brother Andrew lolol. We were purchasing tickets and my brother was like "get one in kids so you can save a few bucks" and I was like "dude no, I'd rather pay the full price and get caught." He was like "they won't even check. Why are you so scared anyways?" Me: "It's not even about being scared. I don't wanna get caught and kicked out of the place cos of a lousy couple bucks." And blah bah, we got caught and I gave him 2 more bucks to get the right ticket... Gosh made me so mad. He didn't even get popcorn cos he probably felt super shitty... On the other hand, the movie was so good! I love disney movies <3 and we came back home and I slept. The end.
9.            something that makes me sad when i think about it.

10.        something i’ve lied about.
Hahaha the funniest one that's most recent is on the night of Asylum. Some guys asked for mine and Christina's name and I just blurted out Stephanie. I used to use that name for reservations and such when I was in NY and scared of being kidnapped hahaha.
11.        would i rather be stranded on a desert island with someone i love for ten years or someone i hate for a month? explain why.
Someone I hate for a month. I'd grow to hate the person I love over the years lol... But I can overcome my hatred for that person when we spend our time together.
12.        something i’m currently worrying about.
Passing my PE class lol... I keep skipping that class....... But I won't anymore!
13.        one person from tumblr i’d throw off a cliff, one i’d marry and one i’d fuck.
14.        something i do without realizing.
15.        lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood.
Omg hahaha "we are never ever ever getting back together". To my ex's who keep bugging me lately. I have no idea what is up. Maybe cos of cuddling season?
16.        a drunken story.
Time at sandpiper last year 12/27. It was the second/last night there and it was raining/storming pretty bad. We didn't go out at all throughout the whole trip and we started the first night early so we thought about starting it earlier the last night as well. And by that time, more people came along and we just wanted to go cray. As soon as we were all getting acquainted, the lights go off. Hahaha omg we ended up sitting around the couch and stuff together and taking shots after shots. Taking pics, jumping around, going outside on the porch, hitting the black & mild. Omg it was so fun..... Some ppl were like avoiding another and we were all getting hecka close. Then the lights came back on and we played flip cup that was mixed with a whole bunch of stuff and I kept losing cos I was drunk from the beginning and then I ended up in the bathroom with eric taking care of me hahaha. Then I tried to sleep on the bed and lolol someone came when everyone else left and tried to do stuff with me but I said no hahaha. And then I did some other stuff and slept.
17.        something i regret.
Dating some people that I dated. Even if it weren't official, some dates were just bound to fail from the start yet I let it happen. *sighhhhhh
18.        post a picture of myself.
19.        my longest relationship and who it was with.
11 months. We talked for 2 months before but became official later and it was with Myung.
20.        press ctrl v and post.
Choose and discuss one theory that explains why people commit crime or deviance.
21.        post a bit of my last IM convo.
22.        5 things i want to change.
23.        my view on being tumblr famous.
24.        someone i’d like to be for a day and why.
25.        5 things within touching distance.
26.    story of my first kiss.
In 8th grade, with my first boyfriend ever. We were on a date from burger king lolol and he had dropped me off home. He said bye, gave me a hug and out of nowhere BAM, kisses me! Well just a peck and he ran off. Hahaha aww we were so cute. Now he's big lolol

Friday, November 9, 2012


1. Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Don't necessarily want but if it happens, then I'll accept it.
2. When did your last hug take place?
I gave Toda's daughter Satori one yday.
3. Are you a jealous person?
Nope. But I'm tryna be, at least a little.
4. Are you tired right now?
Yes, I am lol it's 12:29am on a Thursday night. Thank God I didn't go out...
5. Do you chew on your straws?
No. It annoys me.
6. Have you ever been called a tease?
Lol yeah! Mm as a joke thoe.
7. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Hail nah.
8. Do you cry easily?
I feel like I do but at the same time no. I wouldn't just cry for no reason, but if it came down to it, I would burst into tears and would not stop.
9. What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping or studying lolol.
10. Are you a heavy sleeper?
I have been lately... Just tired I guess...
11. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
I can last in it longer if a guy tried to.
12. Are you mad at someone right now?
Nope, not that I know.
13. Do you believe in love?
14. What makes you laugh no matter what?
A smiling baby... So cute.
15. Who was the last person you talked to?
Physically talk to, mom. Texting wise, Daniel.
16. Do you get butterflies around the person you like?
Of course.
17. Will you get married?
Hopefully one day I'll meet the right guy and he'll want to wife me haha.
18. When was the last time you smiled?
Couple mins ago playing with monkey.
19. Does anyone like you?
I hope so...
20. Do you secretly like someone?
I kinda told him... But it is a secret to others.
21. Who was the first person you talked to today?
Mom lol. I woke up an hour early! Ughh
22. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Sarah Lee. LOL how random is this? Lol she's just brutally honest so I like to tell her anything. Oh and Kyuhee too actually.
23. What are you NOT looking forward to?
The cold weather... Fuuuuuuuu...
24. What ARE you looking forward to?
Daniel coming in a week <3 even if he ditches me lol
25. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
Eric Chung........
26. Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
Glad u moved on and still tell me u miss me~ hmmmm?
27. Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
Not within the next year. Probably in a lil over a year thoe~
28. Are you a forgiving person?
Yeah. I'm trying to not to so people can't take advantage of me.
29. How many TRUE friends do you have?
I'm not sure lolol.
30. Do you fall for people easily?
No. I know my limits. But I will get attached when I fall for u so watch out :X
31. Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?
Uhm lol I said no at first then I remembered Eric Chung. I met Seungwoo and kinda "dated" him first. It was just little crushes but that was when they were like best friends. Now they're just friends and Eric and I kept in touch after all these years (since I was like 12?...) and I fell in love with him...
32. What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Tooth brush. Holla.
33. Who was the last person you drove with?
Forget ehh
34. How late did you stay up last night and why?
I think a lil past 12. And that's me sleeping early lolol. I did a little bible study, praying and stuff.
35. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Just somewhere warm. I actually love it here in WA except the cold wind...
36. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Mom and monkey. He's so tired he fell asleep in her arms. :')
37. Can you live a day without TV?
Yeah lolol I do that almost everyday.
38. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
Ugh let's not.
39. Three names you go by..
Caroline. Carol. Cary.
40. Are you currently in a relationship?
41. What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
The Notebook lol.
42. Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
43. What’s your current problem?
Monkey was sleeping on my leg and now it's bothering me.. Both of em... Agh
44. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Multiple times.
45. Your thoughts of long distance relationships?
If two people try to make it work, it will. Communication is plus. And distance makes the heart grow fonder but after some time, it will be harder and many times, fail.
46. How many kids do you want to have?
At least 2.
47. Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?
LOL last time was telling Daniel. I was in a dilemma whether I should or not. I feel like he was expecting me to tell him to... But I told him.. And got nothing back...HAHAHA