Sunday, January 30, 2011

Wow, I think I've been making a post everyday since I first made this

I'm pretty impressed :) anyways! This post is about makeup LOL.
This blog isn't just for venting, it's a little more hahaha, omg I need to stop talking to myself, cos this is what I'm doing right now......
I lost allllllll my makeup recently (from something that I will keep to myself, along with some of my closest girls... *sigh) and I started recollecting again. But from cheap shit... I've been so broke lately... Anyways, re stocking on cheap shit costs me too. I mean, I might as well save up a few more bucks here & there and buy something that will come to of a use to me. I mean, I used to buy cheap stuff before but that was all "backup". I used up my more higher quality brands more...
What I mean is, I got this elf encyclopedia book of eye shadows and totally regret it. I got two kinds (the Smokey and the Neutrals) and the Smokey one suck!!! I tried using the colors (cos I looove putting colors on my lids) and they barely come out... I put colors on for a reason, to make my eyes stick out. Putting that one on makes my eye sink and look even more squinted than usual haha, fuck.
So, tomorrow, I'm gonna go to Sephora and splurge a little till I completely run out of ...$$dough and buy some more high quality stuff. I've been into makeup the past year or so & saved up a bunch of good stuff (till late last year's accident) and lost all the good stuff........... I've been meaning to ask for last Christmas presents but didn't get the heart to do so.. So I gotta get a job, start saving up and buying myself stuff. Gonna go get a color palette tomorrow, or something. Sigh, why am I so dummbbbb....

Saturday, January 29, 2011

I love writing, did you know that ?

I love bumping music, of all sorts of varieties of music and just write, whatever. Yesterday, I got motivated to write, a lot, so I went on Tumblr (yes, tumblr lol) and ended up finding a lot of the 10 or 30 day challenge writing thing you do online but instead, I'm writing it down, by hand. I know, it sounds crazy but I love doing this type of stuff. It gets me motivated to do something and ya know? It's a good way to extend my English hahaha. I suck at grammar and this is a good way to start (or continue, haha). Plus, this carries memory and stuff =) I love itttttttt. Now, off to my writing.
P.S. One of my goals in life is to write a book, of any kind, so I do this kind of writing self motivation often. Especially after what happened to me yday lol greattttt, emotional.

Some good writing songs lol:
-Pretty Wings - Maxwell
-Just Friends - Musiq Soulchild
-Never Forget You - Lupe Fiasco ft John Legend
-Can I Come Over - Makio
-In The Morning - J. Cole
-Don't Say Nothin' - Ryan Leslie

Friday, January 28, 2011

Why I'm not in school...for now

Mm how to start off with this... Everyone in my family & some friends in my life, are worried about me as of this moment because I am currently not enrolled in any type of school at all. It's true, I didn't apply anywhere and probably won't be going anywhere until fall 2011 and I'm totally fine with it. I have tons of reasons why I didn't apply to any schools last year but I don't wanna say it out loud because of my reasons. Plus, it seems like it'll just be another "excuse" to everyone out there whose got something to say to me.
School (high school) has been shit to me the whole time I was there -except sophomore year in KM, it was theee best- and I mostly just wanted a break from it all. I'm not really a school type of person, if you can catch my drift. I was never the type to go to class, sit there and listen to lectures. I totally know what it feels like to walk into a class filled with like over 40+ students so don't tell me it's a "different atmosphere." I'm more of the person who would like to go to class and get their hands moving. I love doing things that are hands on and free filled and maybe get it dirty at some point. I can't come home and expect to waste my hours away studying. Yes I said it, WASTE. Goddamn, people think it's the end of the world when I say I hate studying and I think it's pointless.
That is one of the hundreds of reasons why I wanted to go to the Air Force. Because I thought I'd be able to do something more active than boring, lol. But I decided not to go because I'm totally set on what I want to do with my actual life. And if that doesn't work out, I'll have my mind set on going to the Air Force , but that's in another two years or so after I'm done going to school. I don't want to tell anyone what I want to be "when I grow up" because those are my plans and my decisions. No one elses, to be telling me what to do and how to get it done. I'm going to be attending any community college willing to accept my transcript and go there for two years taking regular core classes that any freshmen and sophomores college student need to take the first two years of school with my head held up high. There are no reasons for people to pick on students who still want to try.
Plus, most people who get out of even "Ivy League" schools, end up with no career and still having their parents support them living under their parents' roof, pathetic. While I go to school, I'm gonna make sure I get a job, study hard and not make my parents pay for nothing no more. Not my spare change I would need, not car payments, school tuition, nothing. I'm gonna go to a cc for two years and transfer, with a scholarship at hand saying that the school is willing to pay for 100% of my school payments. I don't have parents like everyone else who is willing to pay everything for them, I'm happy enough to pay for myself.
WELL I'M DONE RANTING =) I've got to get ready to go to Barnes & Noble. I want my fucking coffee frap that I've been waiting to have haha. Have a great day ya'll!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

First post ever!

On my new blog (this) of course heh =) lol. When I write, the letters are so ugly... I hope it doesn't look like this on my blog /:

Well first blog I'll make it very simple! This won't be an every day average blogging I do, it'll be more for venting/complaining, etc. I have two handwritten journals, almost three and I thought hey, might as well type it on this blog. Not made for entertainment or your pleasure!

As a simple "(John 15:7) If you abide in me and I abide in you, you shall ask what you desire and it shall be done unto you" to a little more difficult "(Matthew 6: 19-21) Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also" He will always be there, and always understand. And in time, everything will finally fall right into your hands.