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Since I never actually got around to finishing my resolutions for 2012, I'm just gonna have a very small recap on what 2011 was, in pictures! It's been a tough yet greatful time and I'm deadset sure that I've grown up so much as an individual because of it. I hope that 2012 will bring me more great news :)

When halmunee got really sick, my uncle called all our family down to come see her. She really needed us and we all came through to support (me, mom, Andrew came down Christmas 2010 to support).

Sad to say but my gma eventually passed on Jan. 05 2011. Probably the saddest day of my life so far. In picture: my baby cousin & myself.

I came back down from NY to live with Jason till he left for the Air Force. There, we formed the wolfpack. The guys I called my brothers. Jason, Brandon, Trevor, Derek, Travis, & Jimmy. I was the only girl but Chandalyn came to chill for the night.

The few days before Jason was about to leave was the hardest. I cried so little but my heart broke every time I thought about it (which was very often). This was his swear in.

I was sick while he was still in Washington but I got sick even more after he left. My cousin is a nurse but she lives in Georgia and couldn't help unless I was physically close to her. Therefore, I went to Georgia and met up with my mom. This was at some mountain place where me, my mom, my auntie & cousin went to go climb. It was such a perfect day.

Driving back home to Washington with my mom. This is mid-April. Took turns driving.

Brandon & I driving to Denver, CO from Oregon.

Driving with Jason's family to go to his Air Force Basic Training Graduation. This is mid-June.

He did it. And didn't even break a sweat. And just to add, it was an amazing time in Texas. I can't take his family enough for everything they've done for me, him, us. It was much needed and they were there to support us no matter what. We went everywhere & ate everything.--& thanks to my mom! She gave me money to travel with and paid for 2 airplane tickets since Jason's family messed up on the info for one... I love you mommy!! <3 xoxo

I got a job in between traveling and such! I went on an interview and got it rightaway :) well, to add I gotta give props to my friend Raquel for hooking it up! I started right when I got back from TX. And I had a love/hate relationship with this place. Min. wage but I got close to all the workers, we were the Sushiitogo family hahahaha. I drew us all one day.

July 4, 2011

All-in-all, I still hung out with everyone I wanted to hang out with and met many great new people!

My dad came to visit, well to get his license renewel. It was great to see him. I missed him.

I got a tattoo my gma's name. Park Suo Bok. I love her & miss her. After I got this, I felt a deep connection to her. I don't care what anyone says, it's true. And I still don't regret it.

I even went to weddings and bleached my hair!!! It was dirty blonde & I did it at home by myself!! Yay :)

My mom came back sometime after September and we went on a family trip with my uncle from Chicago, auntie from GA, and cousins/aunt from Oregon. We rented a beach house somewhere on the coast of Oregon. Such a great time. Much rather needed family time.

I had a late-ish birthday celebration with close friends. Thank you all for coming out!! It was a great night.

Somewhere in between haha, my family got Monkey. He's the love of my life! He irritates me sometimes but I love him like I've never loved another. This is a Halloween photo so it's not that great.

After a year of lollygagging, I decided to go back to school. I knew it wasn't gonna be easy but it was what I wanted. It was the hardest thing to go back to, studying sched. to keeping up with church, etc but I managed to pull through! & my favorite class was Psych 101. Oh how it understands me.

I'm a Sunday school teacher again!! I missed it and I'm glad I'm officially one! Loving God is one thing. Being able to help the young ones love God is just breathtaking.

Halloween '11 with non other than my "bad bitches" hahahaha. Wonder woman, bandit, zombie, chola & majortrouble (;

Thanksgiving '11. My family & Zula & her son, Jackie went to my mom's boss' place. We know there family from church so it was a good night. Good food, good people.

Christmas slowly crept around. It was a great day. --Jason and I broke up that day. We weren't even engaged anymore at that point but on Xmas, we were just hanging my a thread and he snapped it (I'm dramatic haha). But my family went to Tokyo to eat sushi. It was alright, I miss my mom's rolls. And even though I didn't get anything, it's alright. Because I spent most my money buying my mom many many stuff and I was sooo happy to see her happy.

This picture is flippin hilarious hahahahahaha!! Caroline convinced me to go to Sandpiper this winter break & I'm super glad I did! I had such a great time and this helped me get my mind off of many things and to click with everyone.

NYE............ Nothing to say but can't wait till the New Year :)

The last few photos are in no order. I swear I had more photos but they're spread everywhere so I'll have to just add next time!

2011, you've taught me so much. I grew so much, not speaking physically but I feel more mature now. I've experienced so much that one person can fathom to take in. But I'm glad I went through this route because without it I wouldn't have opened my eyes to all the foolishness I was involved in before. I remember there was a hiatus in my life where I was so anti-social and so arrogant. I hated myself and the world. I'm not saying I'm much different now lolol but I've grown to deal with it, in a positive manner. 2012, be good to me as well. I've been looking forward to you. Been enjoying it so far :)

http://youtu.be/z7mzEbP0CS8

Gym Class Heroes ft. Ryan Tedder - The Fighter

There goes a fighter. Here comes a fighter. That's what they'll say to me. This one's a fighter.

Soon, 2011 is going to be nothing but a blur to me. So before that happens, I want to jot down everything that happened in this fast paced, memorable/heartbreaking year.

-If another girl gets in the way of me and a guy I want, I'll let her have him. More mature mindset

-Just putting it out there but every guy that I've ever had some sort of feeling for, has fucked me over. Even in the slightest manner. And this year, Jason confirmed it.
-As a Christian, it's not my job or in my favors to outwit the person who questions me about my faith and my religion. I feel I'm not obligated to convert someone and tell them things they do not wish to hear. I do what best suits me and that is to just be a Christian. To believe that our One and Only Father came down to remove of us of our sins and to fathom all that He's done for us. He's died for us, for me. And that's all it takes me to give myself up to him.

Lolol I'm not even close to being finished, nonetheless started, but just gonna keep it here.

"I am my mom's biggest fan"

On Saturday, July 16th of this year, I titled a post with the title "I am my mom's biggest fan". I'm discontinuing that one but starting a different one. I'm not saying I'm not anymore but I feel like the reasons behind that has changed or grew, to say so.
Two or three weeks ago, a 16 year old girl with her permit drove into the restaurant my mom works in. My mom saw the whole thing. She told me that she just stood there, frozen, not knowing what to do. No one was severely injured, just this one elderly who got a cut on his forehead from an object flying at his head (lol...) but other than that, everyone else was totally fine. The driver of the Lexus was not hurt at all. But I can tell by her position, she was in shock from what she had done and heard she was crying hysterically the whole time. Her mom was riding in the passenger seat while her older brother had been in the back seat.

Whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin it outPlease don't give in, I won't let you downHe messed me up, need a second to breatheJust keep coming aroundHey, whataya want from meWhataya want from meWhataya want from me

The fact that I thought this was more, or that you wanted more, makes this that much harder. You didn't even fight for me, you just let it go. Yeah, I finalized my decision but you should have stopped me. It wasn't just me in this relationship, was it? It was supposed to be the two of us, fighting for us, for our future together, that we decided on... It's not supposed to be hard, we're both supposed to know what we wanted. Which is this, us. If we were physically there, it would have been me talking the whole time while you sat there, watching me pack my bags and leave the door. You repeated the same shit today, you let it happen this way. Even till now, I'm still the only one holding on... This sucks, really.

I am my mom's biggest fan

To be continued........lol

I'm going to write myself a love poem & it's gonna be the thing I read to Jason on the podium.

Damien Fernandez: Forever

No one can compare to you, no one as good as you, no one as sweet as you...

I miss you so much... I talked to you forever today. Since 8:30 as I was driving home from work. I missed phoning with you and so glad I did. I know my home reception sucks so I guess you have no choice but to get me the HTC hahaha you're so silly, so cute <3 I forgive you for joking about me going over there to you to cuddle with you & making me cry... I guess I needed to let it out since we both didn't cry when I left ya there in Texas, homeboy :o) hahaha I love when you call me "guuuuurl" hahaha. It's so funny. Just like the old times =) which is also perfectly fine for me. I loved "us" when we were just best friends. We held hands, slept together on the same bed, cuddled always, and we have so many inside jokes. You'll be my best friend forever, and forever my soulmate. You're the best, no one can compare.
Can't wait till I see you again. I see youuuuu, tryna surprise visit me July 4th weekend. But it's too darn expensive ): but it's okay boo. I can see you when I'm down for the weekend in August. I'm gonna ask for time off, I'm pretty sure that it'll be perfectly fine :) I'm gonna save up hella money and it won't be a problem for neither of us. We can go get our rings, and each other's birthday gifts. It'll be so fun yay. I'll come down your birthday weekend!! Ahhhhhhh that'll be so "AWEsome" hehehe. What is? Hahaha I miss our jokes... But yay, when I go down, you won't need to head back & you can spend the nights with me <3 lovelyyyy. I miss you so much. I love you so much more. Can't wait to be in your arms again, Airman Piol <3 Your fiancee, cmoney :) haha xoxo hugs & kisses!!!

1 Peter 4:8 'Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.'