Dear ex boyfriend

Hahahaha omg I'm ridiculous. I remember telling everyone I'm completely over you but honestly, I don't think I am. You were even my boyfriend but I miss more than I've ever missed anyone. This is the most difficult post-"relationship breakup" ever and I'm sad to say that, it's over and I have to get used to it. No matter how much I'm struggling, I have to accept it and move on.
I've tried everything. From dating other guys, to even trying to hate you. I've consoled in my closest girlfriends whom you know and they tell me to move on. Even from one of my girlfriends, this is what she noted, "I think its cus its the first guy that treated you like a princess & you weren't used to that. But you needa realize that all guys should treat you like that. So just meet another guy that treats you that well...whose also tall tan & sexy." Hahaha I love her words of wisdom, and it's true.
I was recollecting all the memories from before. How good he was to me and how I wasn't too fond of how well he treated me because it wasn't something that I've dealt it. Whenever he had complimented me, I'd always say something to backfire instead of accepting it and thanking him. It hit me that I missed him the most when I had a drink with my gf's sunday night. We all got totally wasted and the next morning I woke up with the fattest hangover. As soon as I woke up, I thought of him. Because the last time I was at their place, hungover the next day, I called him and he came to pick me up & he took care of me. All I was longing for what him to be there again but it hit me that he won't be, and probably never again.
I went to Roots like two Sundays in a row and I saw him there. But whenever we looked at each other, he looked and walked the other way. That is what troubles me the most, I think. Why I can't let go... The fact that we will never be the same as we used to be. He used to mean so much to me before everything and now he's nothing... He was someone I considered my best friend before it all. And then he was my lover. And now...nothing.

This probably should be private...

When in doubt,

This summer I'm not expecting anything. I just want to work, save up, start getting ready for school by relaxing, and have chill days/nights. When summer hits, or is about to, people get all anxious to "live life up" and go do things they've never done before. It's reasonable, they have the time off and the weather is great, but that doesn't mean you must be out every single night pissed drunk.
My goal this summer is to relax, and meet up with my close friends that I'm not able to see during the school year. I want to see my bnb girls and have dress up nights and girls night outs. I want to see Nathalie and help her through the tougher times, living on her own and all. I want to see Joanna when she has the times to. I want to be with Donna when she comes down once in a while from wsu. I miss peejay although he's always working. I wanna get him back to school as well as Janet. I want Sarah to enjoy this summer before her first year in college at UW. I want to call Melissa often and keep my words. I want to see my other friends and enjoy the littlest things. I also want to find a church to settle down with. So that it's not just good for our social gatherings but spiritual growth as well. I want to help my mom during the hardest times. And I want my teeth to hurry up and get straight.
Lolol this was such a pointless text. I totally got off topic and I made no sense whatsoever.

And this is closure.

Dear Person,
I just wanted to let you know that I'm getting over you. I understand that I'm still going to miss you and that it's going to be hard to accept the fact that we will not be together again. But you know what? I'm okay with it. I'll get over it and I'm going to be okay. Know why? I'm better this way. I am so much stronger than I have ever felt and I don't want to get over you by hating you or being with someone else. I've learn to accept the fact that I'm going to be on my own for a while and I'm totally cool with it. I now have room to stretch and friends to help me through the tougher times. I don't need a silly boy to help me get over those lonely nights because feeling alone is being human.
I do want to thank you though. You hurt me a lot by ignoring my feelings and leaving me when I needed you the most. It has definitely been the hardest 3-4 months but I've definitely come to appreciate it and you. I know that there will be no next time, no one will ever hurt me again, and I'll deal with it any better way than I have. Thank you for being a great friend (and a man), for helping me see that I can do and be so much, and for teaching me to be strong on my own. I'll miss you, I still do, but as a friend. But now I'm over you and I'm never looking back.
Love,
Carol

I follow this one girl on ig and we're "friends" on Facebook and she posts pics of her same face every single damn day. Like dude, I understand. You're getting ready. You're out shopping. You're enjoying yourself so much you want us to enjoy you too. But please, give me a fucking break. If you were asking for attention, I definitely did not notice... Like seriously! Pointless hash tags will only bring more creepers and uneducated fools calling you "bomb" and the saddest part is that you like it so much you keep doing it. It's funny because people used to say I was jealous, till they got tired of her too. They realized how unbearable a girl can look when she's got to wear the tightest shit to show off her body. A classy girl covers up. She flaunts without making herself look like a attention whore. Show me a picture of your mom just because she means something to you. Not the drunk photos you clearly think is making you so famous. THAT IS NOT THE ONLY WAY TO ENJOY COLLEGE.

Dear person I hate,

You'll probably be in multiple categories because lately it's been harder to forget about you... I don't know what it is but I can't seem to get over you. I tried to go on dates, and many more guys have asked me out and hit on me way more than they ever have altogether. And the only guy I kissed other than you this year was that guy Jordan from the army but honestly, he wasn't anything compared to you. I miss your kisses, I miss your face, your motivation, your spirit... everything... I hate you only because you left me when I needed you the most. I thought you were going to fight for me but I guess I'm not worth fighting. That's why I hate you. Because you made me believe everything and you just left. You expected me to respect myself more in the near future but the more I've become is more self-conscious and I hate myself even more. I didn't give you enough to make you feel like you'll need me and I hate myself and you for that... We were good together... but now it's over & I've got to move on.

DIY High-low/ Waterfall Skirt

There is the option to buy a high-low skirt but I decided to make one because they were either too pricey or too long (because I'm 5'5" and have very short legs). Anywho, before I explain what materials are needed or how we're gonna do it, must first talk about the pattern. I found this pattern on youtube from LifeOfABioNerd and she's the one that explained how to do everything! From making the pattern to finished the hem stitching at the end. Only problem was patter paper for myself. I went to JoAnn's to go buy some but they told me they didn't carry it and I honestly didn't want to buy it online because my local post office is not very fragile with my stuff... Therefore, I made mine out of Christmas paper! It works just as well, only problem is that it's not seethrough as I'd like it to be... Anyways, just follow these instructions and it's an easy go!

Materials:
-Pattern (I used polyester/cotton)
-Christmas paper
-Clothing scissors
-Pins
-Chalk (or clothes marker)
-Measuring tape
-Ruler
-Sewing machine
-Creativity!

This is the top part of my shirt, the left front and whatnot. I got this measurement by measuring my waist, then my bums, and where I want my short bandage skirt to end (if I happen to make one).

 I duplicated it the back way and got this!

Place that patter and draw one side of the skirt. From the front (left side of the pattern) to where it will flow down to the back (right side of the pattern). Make sure when making the pattern, to make the ends of the waves 90 degree angle or else it will look funky. Next cut the paper from left to right side (where the middle line is) and cut that into four sides, duplicate it and voila, you'll get this!:

 Then cut the patterns out and stack them right on top of each other (remember it should be inside out).

Sew and make the hemming.

Turn it the right side out and this is what it should look like (sorry about my dog's poop...)! Yay have fun!! Get creative!!